Letters To the soulmate

Why does this happens that we feel we are just there to catch our dream...
It just vanishes..
Why does that happens that when we feel we have endured a lot for the ambition
It puts us back on the starting point..
why does that happens when we feel we have found our true self...
It makes a dejection to  our existence..
why does that happen when we feel we have the opportunities we were seeking since long..
It passes by us as we are incapable of this...
Why does that happen when we feel our struggles are just about to end...
It poses a more challenging situation ..
Why does that happen we want to open our hearts to people..
It scares us with what ifs.....
why does that happen when we try to take charge of our life in our hands..
It fills our mind with tumultuos uncertainities...
why does that happen when we think harder for  a stable life..
And it is that's when we face the real havoc..
Why does that happen when we introspect for the many more such questions..
It puts us on endless contemplations sessions  yet no precise answers,
 may be the dream you were catching.. was never there
Or may be you were searching that in a wrong direction..
Or you are still at a place in labyrinth and hunt isn't finished...
may be the ambition is higher than your endurance...
Or may be destiny is testing your strength or may be preparing you for future...
Or may be your true endurance has still not been endured..
Or may be the preservance was the second  step...
Or may be the sweat the endurance is all worth it...
may be when we find our true self  is not actually our true self..
Or may be there is something which is still ambiguos....
Or may be you are afraid to accept your trueself,,,
Or maybe we fail to leave our comforting zone and push ourselves harder,, for true self..
May be the opportunities you were seeking were the ones we were actually not seeking..
Or may be you are unable to hold responsibilities of the loss of current opportunities..
Or may be its a human behaviour...
or may be its when you need no one But yourself to take a leap of faith...
may be the struggles we see is itself the cluster uncertainities..
or may be the fear of uncertainities is the true struggle...
or may uncertainities are pervasive timelessly..
or may be the life is embeded in uncertainities .. which is where it exists..
or may be its How the life goes....
May be the people we want to open our heart are unworthy of it...
Or may be our past experiences with the people are not welcoming..
or may be we just donot appreciate our milestones..
Or may be the shoving off the citadel of false perception is better than misleading anyone...
Or may be we just withdraw waiting for someone who opens their heart first..
May be when we take the charge of our life without knowing ourselves better..
Or may be we lack self esteem and determination...
Or may be the beginning are always tough.....
Or may be it happens with everyone...
May be the we think harder than working harder for a stable life..
or may  be notion of stable life is a myth...
Or may be it's a matrix of varying degrees of havoc throughout dynamically..
Or may be its when there is dire need to show the courage of being patient..
Or may for many of us life goes like this....
or may be for all of us life goes like this...
           
                  - With love
                      Your wife..